The year 2017 is over already so it is time to look forward to the year 2018. Here are my resolutions for this year.
The year 2018 is already here for some days so it is time to reveal my resolutions. Well, I don’t know if I can call it resolution but it’s what I would like to improve in the upcoming year so I think the word “resolution” fits it well.
Firstly, let me tell you something about 2017 briefly. For me personally it was very strange year. Full of ups and downs, it was pretty hard to manage some moments sometimes. But I believe that things happen for some reason – good or bad – and even the bad things need to happen to teach us something.
But the more the end of 2017 was coming, the more I was looking forward to it. I don’t know why but I really never got used to the number 2017 but getting used to the number 2018 was not a problem for me. I was really looking forward to the moment when I start to write 8 instead of 7 at the end of the number of the year. So I hope that the year will be good to me. Well, number 8 is my favourite one and also the lucky one, at least I believe in it. But I know that good luck doesn’t go to you suddenly, you need to do something for it. Go for it.
For me the main resolution for 2018 is to work on myself, mainly from the psychological point of view. I know that it’s not easy but it’s a big challenge. I would like to be more balanced psychologically. I would like to be more myself, doesn’t matter what. I need to be more assertive. I doesn’t have to be so afraid of meeting other people, of saying what I think, what I really want. I need to learn how to believe in myself. I have problems with my self-confidence since I was a child but I really want to improve it. To be self-confident is the main thing of good life, or at least I believe so. I also need to learn how to be more courageous, be more independent. Overthinking is my second name, I guess. And that’s such a bad habit, or characteristic, I don’t know how to call it. But I know that I need to learn how to try to do some things and not thinking about it all again and again and again. It’s tiring.
Another resolution for me is to find a job. My previous job contract came to the end so I need to find something new. And it is also quite a problem because I don’t know what I want. Actually, I know what I would like to do but I feel like it’s impossible. And maybe it’s also the matter of the thing that I don’t believe in myself, in my knowledge, in my capability. But I know that I really would like to have a job which I would enjoy at least a little bit. Because I don’t know that feeling when you go to the job and you are happy. I always did something I was not happy with. And I think it’s time to change it. I just don’t know how. Maybe to change the attitude would be enough but that’s also a big thing for me. I think I need to work on myself a lot.
Well, I also would like to do something crazy and spontaneous. I don’t know what exactly it could be but maybe during the year something will come to my mind. I’m quite shy and diffident so even small step to change it could be that crazy moment.
Another important thing I need to change is my postural habits. I know that I slouch my back and I know it’s not good. Time to time I feel the backache so I need to do something with it. But maybe it has also something to do with my low self-confidence. You know, when you don’t believe in yourself, you hang your shoulders, look to the ground and so on and that’s me. I need to learn how to walk with my head raised. Well, I would like to start to do some exercises. Especially for my back. But also just for myself, to be in better condition.
One of my resolutions for 2018 is also to keep learning Italian. I started to learn this language last year and I really fell in love with it. I just learn by myself, from the internet but I also have some book. Well, I think that to keep this resolution will not be difficult for me as I really love it and every time I look forward to new lessons.
And then I should clean all the things which I have in the boxes under my bed. Just normal things.
I just would like to do some changes in my life and to change things in my room, to throw the old things away, is also the part of it. I really would like to do some changes in my life, finally forget the past, forgive myself and the others and start from zero. I don’t know if I will be able to do it this year or if this year would be just the first step. But even if I would be courageous enough to do that first step it would be great. Because you know, to do the first step is the hardest thing.
I think the word resolution could also mean to learn something new, get new experience, new knowledge. But it just comes how the life goes.